Yes I am back from Europe and have a lot to write about but first i have to write something that is long over due...
A few weeks ago I lost my Great Aunt. She was more like a grandmother to me than an aunt. I saw her that often and she loved me and my brother and sister that much. She became really sick before I had gone home a few weeks ago. She had been battling leukemia for several months now. While on the phone with her for her last good day, she and I had the most beautiful converstation I have ever had in my entire life.
She sounded very weak and scared. "Hello Ben, I just want to tell you that I've had the most wonderful life. You were a very big part of it. I love you very much. I am very proud of you and you have always been an angel in my eyes."
"I love you too... You have been a very big part of my life too."
Thats all i was able to say... She was very tough on me during my rough years of drugs and academic probation. This cleared all of that. Forever.
I had the opportunity to see her once more though she we in a coma. I held her hand. Everyone was talking to her. I didn't. I wanted to keep that as the last converstation that we had. It was perfect.
At her funeral as I threw one last flower on to her as they put the soil over the casket... I told her again I loved her and explained why I didn't say anything that day. I am positive she thinks I did the right thing.
The hardest part about the whole thing was watching my Grandmother, her twin sister. "Goodbye My Beautiful ----. Goodbye my love." Blowing kisses and and shaking her head at the same time.
Thats all i want to say about this right now so goodnight... And always remember...
Appreciate Life And Those Around You Who Mean The Most...
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